One more time, with feeling....

Yes, I'm starting again.  For like the 5th time. 

So much has happened and every time I start again it feels new.  So I'll probably post a ton here in the beginning because I have this ego that thinks that people NEED to catch up with me.  Even though thanks to social media, I'm not sure what you don't already know from Facebook, Twitter or anywhere else I write or update. 

So my husband died in May.  May 26th to be exact.  We had not been living together for about 10 months.  He was really sick for a long time, if you remember.  He wasn't getting better and his self care was questionable, at best.  In the end his demons were his demise and he died of a drug overdose.  It's sad, and while I mourned- when I found out the actual cause of death, my mourning pretty much stopped.  Since then I have also stopped "seeing him" or "feeling his presence"- which sort of freaked me out in the first place. 

It's funny how closure comes to you.  It came to me in the form of an addendum made on a death certificate. 

Now, with that part of my life very much  behind me- I can focus all of my life and love where it is better deserved.

I'm living with a wonderful man, who is my Dominant (see: 50 shades of Gray and add a little more reality).  I probably won't discuss THAT aspect of my life here in too much detail.  Well, I say that but if you know me, you know that everything I write about has lots of detail.  But either way, this blog won't be about that- not just about that.

We live together with my three kids, and his kid.  The teenager, the minions and the spawn. 

And we are poly.  (see: Polyamory) 

My life is not all about spankings, group sex, and video games. 

Oh, and we have a dog.  (see photo above)

My life is about me, and the people I love and how we interact and how we live, learn and grow.  I have finally added "growing" to the things I'm actually DOING. 

So if you have been a reader for a long time, stop and say hello.